February 21, 2013

I felt a tinge of jealousy as soon as I saw their names tagged in the post--two of my good friends, up until 3:00 am with other friends, having a great girls' night out. I knew I shouldn't be jealous. But I was. I was invited to the same activity. I could have come.

I thought about my nursing baby, the reason I can't stay out late and play.... I thought about how even if I had come, I wouldn't have wanted to stay out as late as they stayed up. I thought about what is really important to me.

I know that I'm in a different season of life than the others. They are past the child-bearing days and moving on to more independence. I still get to cradle a baby in my arms. I still have a little person who depends on me for very life. And tonight when I looked at him and realized all that, he gave me the biggest smile and let me kiss his sweet, chubby cheeks over and over.

I also thought about my sweet husband, and how on Wednesday night when I was at the Church for Young Women, I brought all the kids with me and waited for Eric to come pick them up after his lecture. When I saw him walk in the door, it stopped my heart and took my breath away, even after 10 years of marriage. I would rather have seen him than any other person in the world. I would rather spend my nights with him, than be out till the middle of the night with friends. He is the most important thing to me.

And even though a girls' night out is always a good idea, I am more than happy to be home at night with two boys who adore me. :)